whats good?

Sometimes I wonder why cats decide to put their claws back in.

Anyway—remember when people used to blog and it was the thing to do?
Well, I figured I’d join… 15 years too late. But what else am I gonna do? Post reels that actively help shrink your attention span until it fully dissolves?

Didn’t think so.

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"Glow stick has to break before it glows”

Of all the characters I’ve ever loved, over time, Pucca became the one closest to me.

The thing about Pucca is that she was capable of something I never was—she could love without receiving love in return. She was obsessed with Garu and tried everything to be close to him.

But the moments I loved most were when she had to step back because Garu disrespected her. She understood that love alone wasn’t enough to excuse being treated poorly.

Check out my bichin 10th b-day party in brazil!

highlight of my life

So what am I trying to say and where the duck are the spicy infos?

In life, you have to accept that fulfillment will never arrive if you keep postponing it. Everything you want—every change, every joy—happens now. Not tomorrow. Not next Monday. Not after the next big milestone. Now.

Happiness isn’t something you find out there—it’s something you build in here. And realizing that is one of the most liberating discoveries of all.

For years, I excluded myself from the life I wanted. I told myself I wasn’t ready. I wasn’t worthy. I lived for the “when.”
When I start working.
When I lose the weight.
When I get serious about exercise.
When. When. When.

But when never comes unless you make it come.
The only moment that ever really matters is the one you're in.

And don’t get me wrong—just doing isn’t easy. I’m nowhere near a place where procrastination and avoidance have been wiped from my daily routine. I still catch myself thinking, I’m not ready. I’m not good enough. I’m not quite there yet.

I make excuses. I miss opportunities. I don’t always show up with intention or determination.

But you know what? That’s okay.

The most important thing in life is the willingness to grow, to change, to keep learning. Nothing is truly wasted. Nothing is ever really missed. Even what feels like failure teaches you something—something you’ll carry into the next attempt. And if you fail again? You’ll learn again.

It’s not about being perfect. It’s about being in progress.

I think, for me, the hardest part of life feels like standing on the edge of a cliff, knowing I need to take a step, but hesitating. I can’t settle for the flat safety of a hill-less path. Even when the ground is smooth, my mind has the expertise to invent Everests.

And the thing is—they’re not even that steep. But I have a talent for making things seem bigger, scarier, more impossible than they are, just to talk myself out of jumping.

Comfort zones are cozy for a reason. But if life has taught me anything, it’s that growth doesn’t come from staying safe. You have to get uncomfortable to become the version of yourself you’ve never dared to imagine.

So yes—someone, please come pick me up and yank me out of my comfort zone. I’m still preparing for my next move like it’s the moon landing.

But as we say in Germany: Einsicht ist der erste Schritt zur Besserung.
(Realizing the problem is the first step toward improvement.)

FAQ

  • as I am half latina, yes I can dance

    as I am half german, no I cannot dance,

    depends on whos judiging the “can”

  • oh ohohhohohoho, I don’t think we know each other that well… yet… ;)

  • The average weight of a usual wild Lara, creator of Lash up and Pucca Fan Nr. 1 reaches between 65-70 kg. depending on her mouth stuffing to muscle pumping ratio

  • I’m always open to take suggestions on my bad life choices and or nail polish colors.